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summertime

it’s summer!!  got home last night, and still missing iu and everyone like crazy.  it’s so weird to think the seniors are graduating, and some of my favorite girls won’t be back next year.  things are going to be different without some of my closest friends there (like amanda, leigh ann, courtney, liza)…

but i am ready for summer.  i’m kinda happy i’m not going back to camp.  i wanna do fun things this summer!  like go to amusement parks (disneyland/six flags anyone?) and the beach and just have fun.  who is with me?

Don’t you hate when one of your really good friends, or so you thought, one day just stops talking to you?  And then you hear her talking shit about you and makes it quite obvious that she’s mad at you?

I’m so fed up.  Like really, she can’t even look at me in the face anymore.  I don’t know what I did.  Seriously, I usually have some sort of idea…but I’m completely lost.  I don’t know what the fuck I did, and I can’t make the situation better until it’s known.  So until then, you’ve just lost yourself a friend.  I hope it bites you in the ass when you realize it.

easter?

i got to celebrate easter this weekend, and it was such an awesome experience.  no seriously, i had a really really good weekend in south bend with amanda (and courtney for part of the time).  we didn’t do a whole lot, but it was just really fun and what not.

i’m starting to realize how close it is until the end of the school year.  almost a month.  and just thinking about next year freaks me out a bit.  the people i have been closest with in the house lately…well, most of them are all seniors and graduating.  and people lately have been giving me the cold shoulder.  just like, they don’t like who i hang out with so they don’t want to associate themselves with me.  it just sucks, because i feel like if i hadn’t gone to south bend this weekend it would’ve been different.  but amanda is my friend, if people have issues with that then i don’t know what to say.  i’m sorry if you guys don’t get along, but let me do what i want — seriously.

annoyance

i’m sick of hearing one of my friends being shit talked all the time.  she’s a human being who makes mistakes.  you don’t have to love her, but treat her with respect.  and treat ME with respect, because you know i’m friends with her and i get so uncomfortable when she’s talked about.  it’s just not fair to me to have to listen to it CONSTANTLY.  yeah, there’s things that she does that i don’t favor - but she’s my friend, so just stop talking about her if you don’t have anything nice to say.

(and this has NOTHING to do with any of you reading this.  just need a place to vent.)

and on a completely different subject, i’m 1 page away from being done with my paper, and 1 class away from the weekend!  south bend on saturday…yay!

Weekends

This weekend was pretty bad.  It was mom’s weekend, but my parents are on vacation in Hawaii right now….so it was pretty lonely.  It was also Relay for Life, and unfortunately a lot of drama went down with that.  Tonight I did get to have dinner with Sarah, which was lovely as always.  And it was just nice to be with someone not in the house.

The rest of my weekends of the semester, however, will be fantastic.  Or so I hope.  This coming weekend I’m going to South Bend with Amanda to celebrate Easter with her family…yes, the Jew is celebrating Easter, and yes, I’m excited :D  The following weekend is formal (of course I have yet to find a date), Delts powderpuff, senior wills/send off along with other various things.  Then is Little 500 (and Erin’s coming to visit, yay!) and then it’s time to study for finals…how lame.  I’m coming home May 8th, and couldn’t be more excited!

I’m going to bed soon.  I might have to hit up Starbucks before classes tomorrow, considering the sorority coffee pot somehow broke.  I’m not a morning person without my coffee.  Speaking of mornings, I also have planned out my next semester, and if all goes well the earliest I start class is 1, the latest I end is 5:15 and NO FRIDAY CLASSES!  Oh, how amazing that will be.

Sick of Everything

Today was not the day I wanted it to be.  I woke up, slightly hungover, to discover one of my sisters was talking about me and saying I did something I didn’t do whatsoever.  What bothered me even more is that she apologized, and then was talking to one of my sisters (who I’m extremly close with, so of course she would tell me what happened) and was assuming why I was in such a bad mood (which yet again, was not true).  I don’t appreciate that I was hearing such things, but the girl seems not to care that I’m upset at her.

I’m sick of being the one everyone talks about.  Today, I felt like a good half of my sorority wouldn’t talk to me because of this issue/lying.  What bothers me though is supposedly people were mad at me, but not a single one came to me to talk about it.  I would’ve comfronted them, but I 1) had no idea who was mad at me  and 2) had no idea why in fact they were mad at me.  I’m sick of being messed around with, and I’m sick of people treating me like shit.  The fact that people think I’m a terrible person for something I didn’t do is ridiculous.  I just wish I could do something about it.

I want to go home more than anything.  May 8th…hurry the fuck up.

School…ugh…

I don’t like being back at school. So many people are happy to be back. Why? No clue…but is it May 8th yet?